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Tuesday, March 31, 2015

All Things Change--from the Tao Te Ching 


If you realize that all things change,
there is nothing you will try to hold on to.
If you aren't afraid of dying,
there is nothing you can't achieve.

Trying to control the future
is like trying to take the master carpenter's place.
When you handle the master carpenter's tools,
chances are that you'll cut yourself.

(Tao Te Ching, trans. by Stephen Mitchell)

(image from internet)

The Tao Te Ching is an ancient Chinese wisdom text, often thought to have originated in 600 B. C.  It is attributed to Lao Tzu, but even his existence is debated.  It is a classic text in the Chinese cannon, and has been translated numerous times.

Monday, March 30, 2015

Thoughts on Bliss and Devastation 

The last few years have brought us perilously close to an unspoken fear that we are losing the battle against violence, and that the climate of relative decency we have known is no longer holding firm. Or even that, if we do not do our best to battle against it, we may be facing the start of an unlawful age.
Ellen Hinsley

Ellen Hinsley is a poet of extremely refined and meticulous taste.  For years, she has investigated the recent events of Europe, especially the crimes and atrocities that have taken place after World War II.  She is extremely reflective in her writing and her poetry is the result of a sensibility thoroughly grounded in the traditional humanistic tradition.  She is highly intellectual.  She deals with the fundamental questions and provides no easy answers.

Her work is challenging to those who seek soft answers to essential questions, such as, is the human species inherently prone to violence?  How can we deny our own culpability in committing destructive acts against the "enemy" as well as the innocent (most of war's victims are civilians)?  But also, we must ponder, how is it that regeneration so often follows destruction?

Her work also brings us to another key question: how can we immerse ourselves in the uplifting work of such writers as Rumi, Hafiz, and Kabir, when the world around us appears to be going up in flames?  How can we dwell on the bliss states of Kundalini when so many across the globe are suffering extreme deprivation and pain?  What good is sacred poetry to someone facing a death squad in the Middle East?  Are we indeed facing the actual destruction of Western Civilization, in an era when all moral law and respect for human life are abandoned?  What might the future hold?  Are we facing the imminent arrival of a new Dark Age, such as followed the collapse of Rome in a regression which lasted centuries before the Renaissance brought recovery?

However, whatever happens to our world as it currently exists, Kundalini itself will remain, for it is the creative life force of the universe itself.  Its currents pulse throughout the cosmos, in every atom and particle that exists.  To speak of a massive leap of humanity to a new level of consciousness as a result of such chaos may seem naive, but even that is a possibility.  And if humanity does not survive the destruction, then new worlds will be created, new universes formulated, and new species spring forth in this unknown future.

In the meantime, we cling to our beloved sacred poets, who give us strength to survive and hope for our future.  As Rumi said, we must dance no matter what dangers surround us in our current world.

Friday, March 27, 2015

What is Kundalini--from internet at "The Human Angels" 

I found this intriguing piece on the internet on a site called "the Human Angels".  It is one of the very best summaries of the Kundalini experience I have found, but no author is listed.  When I tried to contact them at the e-mail address they give, I was told that the site does not exist.   The archives cease at 2012.

Here is the content from the site:

The Human Angels: Indigo, Crystal, Rainbow, Star Children

We are Human Angels and Lightworks. We are here to educate and share our gifts. We are called Indigo, crystal, Rainbow,and Star children. There is so much information out there. I am a crystal child and a very young one. I hope my message will open your eyes.

Monday, May 31, 2010

What is Kundalini? What is Kundalini?
More than fifteen years ago, when I was twenty-two, I experienced something known as a “kundalini awakening”. When it happened, I had no idea what had occurred. I didn’t have a spiritual teacher or guru on the somewhat meandering spiritual path I’d embarked on a few years earlier. I’d started practicing hatha yoga, read voraciously everything from "The Tibetan Book of Living and Dying" to Carlos Castaneda, meditated alone in the desert, practiced deep emotional release, went to workshops and spiritual gatherings, and in the process met many others also reaching for a higher state of consciousness and a more meaningful experience of being.

It was still completely out of the blue and totally mind-blowing, however, when I experienced my kundalini energy awaken, or arise. There are many, many different types and expressions and experiences of spiritual awakening. Sometimes it’s simply a revelation or epiphany that leads one in a completely different direction, one focused more on spirituality and inner searching. Spiritual awakening can mean seeing angels, or contacting and channeling an alien entity. An experimental trip, such as in a teepee ceremony or sweat lodge, can lead to discovering and embracing a previously unknown part of oneself; or to communing with some aspect of the divine. Spiritual awakening can lead to the ability to see people’s auras, talk with the , or leave one’s body and explore the astral planes.

Kundalini awakening, however, is something else. It can come about as a result of some of these other experiences, as it did in my case. And it can also lead down the road to activating some of these otherworldly phenomenon, and others. In essence, kundalini is simply energy. Specifically, it is spiritual energy, which resides in every human being. Kundalini means literally “coiled serpent”. Figuratively speaking, the coiled serpent represents a reservoir of spiritual energy which lies at the base of the spine, in the root chakra, coiled up because in most people it is latent or potential spiritual energy which the person is for the most part unaware of.

Through yogic or other spiritual practices, or sometimes due to subconscious individual efforts or even completely randomly, this energy can be awakened in an individual; in which case the energy is tapped into and begins flowing upwards from the root chakra through all the chakras along the spinal column, culminating in unification with the uppermost crown chakra at the top of the head.

Like spiritual experiences in general, kundalini awakening takes wildly different forms for different people. The differences can range from experiences of pure bliss, to sheer . The unifying experience is that of this rising of spiritual energy that invigorates and activates the chakra system, those six or seven (depending on who you ask) energy centers located along the spinal column, each of which corresponds with some integral aspect of the human spirit.

To summarize the chakras briefly, the first chakra, or root chakra, is located roughly at the base of the spine, specifically at the perineum at the bottom of the abdomen, right between the legs. It is associated with the color red and with basic root power, pure potential energy. The second chakra is midway between the perineum and the naval. Its color is orange, and it is associated with ual and creative energy. The third chakra is in the naval and belly region. It is yellow and is associated with emotions, feelings and intuition. The fourth chakra is at the center of the chest, in the heart area. It is green and is associated with feelings of love, unity and balance, as it is the midway point between the upper and lower chakras. The fifth chakra is located in the neck and throat. It is a light blue and is associated with the voice and personal expression. The sixth chakra is at the third eye, in the middle of the forehead. It is indigo, or a deep blue, and is associated with the eyes and with spiritual sight and visions. The seventh or crown chakra is at the very top of the head. It is purple (a combination of red, the root chakra and deep blue, the sixth chakra) and is associated with oneness and enlightenment, and a connection to the rest of the universe.

Some alternatively say that the crown chakra is actually white, the unification of all the colors. And others say that there are further chakras, the eighth, ninth or tenth which are located above the human body, connecting us with various aspects of the universe or other dimensions, and which might be white, gold, silver or other colors. This is of course open to discussion and interpretation. It isn’t particularly important that everyone agree on the specifics. But it is significant that so many across so many spiritual disciplines agree with the idea of these energy centers in our own human physical forms that connect us to spiritual energies, and ultimately to the divine.

So, kundalini energy originates from the root chakra, and it is that base, pure power that invigorates our spiritual awareness and brings our full human potential to fruition. And as mentioned above, it can result in a wide array of sensations, from bliss or to and anger and everything in between, as it is a highly potent force.

In my case, the initial experience of kundalini was in the latter category, one of extreme inner challenges to say the least. One of the reasons this can be the case, is that kundalini energy is like a fire hose of energy whose innate purpose is to cleanse the chakras of any blockages or disturbances, and bring them back to their full, vibrating potential. And like a fire hose that has been switched on, it is a force to be reckoned with; and once switched on it apparently can not simply be switched back off. Once the energy is gushing forth, rising up the chakra system, it will come into contact with each of the chakras and if met with resistance in the form of blockages, past traumas, denied emotions and memories, guilt, judgments and all the various frozen energy we hold in our human souls that keep us from vibrating fully; then the kundalini energy will awaken these like a spotlight shining into a dark and dusty attic.

Kundalini energy has a single-minded mission, and that is to reunite with the crown chakra. I say reunite because it is also a matter of returning ourselves to our natural state; that of oneness between all aspects of our multi-faceted souls, as well as with the spiritual realms beyond our normal, waking perceptions.

The process of this reunification is where things can get difficult and frightening and for some can seem nearly impossible to resolve at times. The symptoms of kundalini awakening are extremely wide-ranging. Some people simply experience a stream of blissful energy invigorating their soul. Some might find themselves kept awake, unable to sleep and not needing to for days at a time, instead practicing art or music propelled by a constant flood of creative energy. Some people find themselves spontaneously assuming yogic positions or else reciting chants, perhaps in languages they have never spoken before. Still others might find themselves seeing other realms or dimensions, hearing voices or seeing before them non-physical entities, or perhaps having visions of the future, or peering into the ancient past.

For many, myself included, kundalini awakening is a more localized experience which brings about a barrage of assorted energetic symptoms on the physical, mental and emotional planes, that can be downright bizarre and highly unpleasant or even excruciating. In my case, I experienced a sensation as if a fire were burning at the base of my spine, raging up my spinal column. I had electrical shocks occurring all throughout my body, and flashes of light seemingly before my very eyes, as well as outside of my normal field of vision. I felt as if I were simultaneously being crushed, and pulled apart by a powerful force of energy that I couldn’t have previously imagined. For months after my experience of kundalini awakening, I was accosted by a constant onslaught of such symptoms, to the point that I was certain there was no way that what I was going through could be resolved.

Fortunately, I eventually came across a number of books explaining what I was experiencing, which also assured me that there was a purpose to it as well as some sort of resolution. However, resolution in this case doesn’t mean that suddenly the experience ends, and it’s all behind you. As one Buddhist teacher informed me at one point in the depths of these overwhelming sensations: “The energy will not lessen in its intensity. However, you will eventually change to accommodate it, and then it will seem that the energy itself has changed.”

Fifteen years later, I can say that he was exactly right. The purpose of kundalini awakening is not simply to give us an experience which we will then look back on and say that it changed us to some extent. Instead, its purpose is to awaken a source of spiritual energy within our souls which will connect us with our full potential and with the rest of the universe, and which will bring us into a new normal of expanded consciousness and heightened awareness of both the world around us, and the infinite and eternal realms within and far beyond us.

Ultimately, it is my understanding that kundalini awakening is the path to enlightenment and Christ consciousness. Maybe that’s not entirely accurate, and enlightenment is one of those things that itself has many different forms, depending on the seeker and the teacher. After fifteen years of walking this path, all I can say is that I still have a long ways to go, as it‘s a lifetime process.

But I do believe that contacting and awakening this energy is truly the most important aspect of healing that humanity needs to undergo during this time of monumental upheaval and transformation on our planet. Why? Because I have experienced with glimpses and brief moments of clarity and illumination the depth of blissful remembrance and all-encompassing wholeness which kundalini brings about. And in that state of oneness and knowing and connection with All That Is, there is no wanting for anything else, and the incessant problems that plague our world cannot continue to haunt us. Humanity has come to a crucial crossroads, where we can’t simply keep on going forward as we have been for the past several hundred years of accelerating technological progress, unguided by a true connection with our own selves and with the universe as a whole. Humanity needs to make a huge, critical leap of evolution and of consciousness in order to begin relating with our own world and with each other in a completely different way. And kundalini has the power to bring about this critical transformation of humanity, one person at a time.

Finally, I would like to offer a few helpful ideas for anyone who is undergoing kundalini awakening symptoms, particularly those of the unpleasant variety. First, I would suggest finding a range of books and other writings on the subject and read as much as possible so that you have a better understanding of kundalini, what the process is likely to be like and what some of the possible solutions and helpful practices are that go along with kundalini awakening. And if there is a teacher of some sort available who is experienced in the matter, either from direct experience or else from studying the subject for many years, then of course they might be very helpful with things.

But many people seem to find, as in my case, that ultimately you’re strapped in to a roller coaster ride alone, and you have to figure out how to deal with it to a certain extent by your own devices. Kundalini manifests itself differently in every individual, and so the solutions and path of healing can also be highly unique for each person. What I always suggest most of all, is to find some form of physical practice that will help to ground and anchor the energy into your physical body.

Yoga is of course closely associated with kundalini energy, and is perfectly designed to both arouse the kundalini initially, as well as help in channeling and processing the energy once it is awakened. But there are many other things that could be helpful as well, such as tai chi, chi gung, pilates or martial arts. Anything that combines some physical exercise with a focus on spiritual development, and especially attention to breathing is bound to be helpful. And even such things as walking, running, swimming, hiking, biking or other outdoor activities might prove extremely beneficial in helping the energy to make its way through the chakra system and the nervous system. Getting outside and connecting with nature in general is highly recommended. Although it is a non-physical force, kundalini works within and through the physical human form, and so one’s focus should be on the physical plane as much as the spiritual, especially during the early stages.

In other words, don’t simply lock yourself away in your room in a state of spiritual turmoil, thinking there’s nothing that can be done to change these oftentimes strange, bewildering and overwhelming energetic experiences. This will only insure that it will take even longer to go through the process, because the energy must be engaged with your body in order to bring about the changes that will eventually result in a profound transformation of your energetic and physical being. By making an effort to work with the process, you can make a huge difference in moving and guiding the process along. And when in doubt, keep in mind the advice from a wise teacher: “Ask, and ye shall receive.” Because the universe is indeed listening.

Gabriel Morris is author of the spiritual adventure story "Kundalini and the Art of Being", which recounts his own profound experience of kundalini awakening and spiritual journey, all while semi-homeless and hitchhiking around the western United States during the mid-1990s. More info about his travels and writings can be found at http://gabrielmorris.bravehost.com.

Posted by Indigo, Crystal, Rainbow, Star children at Monday, May 31, 2010
1 comment:

sabraFeb 14, 2011, 5:57:00 PM
Thank you for your blog. It has been very helpful to me. I have been going thru this for 2 years to this day. This started for me 2.14.09 through the present 2/14/11. I now have a tool in which to guide me the rest of the way.
Love IS,
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Thursday, March 26, 2015

Andrew Harvey, Sally Kempton present free virtual presentation next Wednesday, April 1, 5:30 p.m. Pacific 

This is a real "power couple."  Don't miss it--it's free!

Here is an e-mail I received from Shift Network:

Dear Dorothy Walters,

I'm writing to let you know about an unprecedented collaboration with two of the most luminous, brilliant and groundbreaking spiritual teachers of our day: Sally Kempton and Andrew Harvey.

They're joining forces for a potentially life-transforming event especially for anyone who wants to experience a more feminine path of empowerment, awakening and service.

You can receive their unique transmission of love and guidance this coming Wednesday during their free virtual presentation: Embraced by the Evolutionary Goddess: Awakening Your Sacred Powers to Transform Yourself and the World.

If you want to discover more of yourself and your capacity for divine love, passion and authentic power to make a difference in the world, you'll definitely want to listen in!

Reserve your space here for two of The Shift Network's favorite teachers together for the first time:
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Sally's teachings are rooted in Hindu nondual traditions, and her recent book, Awakening Shakti, serves as a rallying call for a new wave of feminine mysticism that builds upon ancient wisdom.

Andrew has spent 30 years in advanced scholarship and practice within nearly all the major global wisdom lineages, emerging with an electrifying vision that shows why it's so vital to reclaim the sacred feminine and enact the sacred marriage of masculine and feminine within each and every one of us.

During this free event, you'll learn:

How to dissolve the tyranny of sin, shame and oppression around our bodies, pleasure and life itself.
Why the Goddess is central to empowered sacred action and service.
How Goddess energy can up-level your personal and transpersonal power.
The difference between egoic desire and enlightened desire, and how to know when your desires are aligned with your highest truth.
You'll discover how to reclaim the great She at the core of your life -- as the impulse that is driving you to evolve a more conscious, compassionate and just life.

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Dear Dorothy,

This Sunday, March 29th marks Beyond Awakening’s 100th episode! I’m excited to be joined by Mark Nepo at 10am Pacific for a dialogue we’ve entitled The Practice of Being Human: Seeing with New Eyes in the Best and Worst of Times.

Mark Nepo has been called "one of the finest spiritual guides of our time," "a consummate storyteller," and "an eloquent spiritual teacher." His books have been translated into more than twenty languages.

He is a cancer survivor, a journey which had a deep, spiritually formative impact on him. In his 2013 interview with Oprah on Super Soul Sunday, he reflected on how this journey brought him to the belief that listening with a full heart is the key to living a vibrant and meaningful life.

After contemplating the animating question of this series — how can higher consciousness enable humanity to rise to the challenge of our world's increasingly urgent, complex and intractable crises? — Mark quoted Charles Dickens’ opening to A Tale of Two Cities, saying that our time, like every time, is both “the best of times and the worst of times.” As one thing intensifies, it all intensifies.

He is concerned by the enormous environmental, social and political challenges of our time, but Mark sees the whole human experiment as innately hopeful.

I’ve written a longer blog post that says much more about what we’ll be discussing here. I hope you’ll tune in!

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Indigo Children, Indigo Adults, Kundalini 

Recently, someone wrote to me asking about Indigo Adults and their possible connection to Kundalini.  Here is the substance of my reply.  She began her letter asking first about the significance of seeing colors and images during her meditation.

Indigo Children, Indigo Adults, Kundalini

Frankly, I do not see anything all that unusual in your experiences.  Many meditators see color when they meditate, and indeed others see figures and forms, particularly when they are undergoing Kundalini awakening.  I cannot explain this except to say that meditation, and particularly when it is coupled with K. awakening, literally stirs the centers in the brain to produce novel patterns and images.  This is nothing to fear.   I speak from long experience of similar responses, particularly in the beginning stages of the journey.

As for indigo adults, I confess that although I was familiar with indigo children, I had not heard of indigo adults before, so I looked them up at the following site:


I think you would benefit a lot from reading this and other related sites, for these offer a description of this type of person.  Be sure to read the reader comments that follow.  Many say how pleased they are to find others who share their temperament and inner nature and are relieved to discover that they are "not the only one."

Did you know that the term indigo as applied to children simply means that they fall into this category on a color chart which a woman (the psychic Nancy Tappe) set up years ago to describe various kinds of children.  I assume that "indigo adults" are simply those who also fall into a similar category.  The color indigo does not describe the color of their skin and does not necessarily apply to the color of their auras (as far as I know.)  I happen to see auras always in some shade of indigo/violet/purple and I think I am simply picking up on the spiritual qualities of those I am watching.  Thus when someone sees indigo in your aura, I think that observer is simply noticing the spiritual aspects of your nature.

As for kundalini and indigo children and adults, I suspect there may well be a connection, since Kundalini implies a deep spiritual engagement with the divine energies of the universe.

I also think that the term "indigo child or adult" simply describes a type of person who has long existed in society, though not by this name.  These are the ones who often "do not fit in" with their peers. They are preoccupied with other, perhaps deeper, matters.  They are not the prom queens and kings or the football heroes.  They are busy reading books, communing with nature, or pondering questions such as the meaning of life.  William Wordsworth said of his early years that he was "not of this time, not of this place."  Mary Oliver, obviously an indigo child and adult, often skipped her classes in h.s. so that she could rove the woods and valleys and connect more deeply with nature.

Some of my most admired and creative friends dropped out of college, for they found the classes boring and irrelevant.

I actually have a personal theory which is that those who were lonely and felt out of place as young people often are the ones who go ahead to become extremely creative in the arts and sciences later in life.  They are often the change agents, the ones who bring innovation into the culture, for they are able to "think outside the box."  What Goethe called "mass man" is often afraid of change, for such persons cling to the known and familiar, the safety of the "group think."

Wednesday, March 25, 2015

Walt Whitman––from Preface to Leaves of Grass 

Love the earth and sun and the animals,
 despise riches, give alms to everyone that asks,
stand up for the stupid and crazy,
devote your income and labor to others,
hate tyrants, argue not concerning God,
have patience and indulgence toward the people,
take off your hat to nothing known or unknown,
or to any man or number of men,
go freely with powerful uneducated persons,
and with the young, and with the mothers or families,
re-examine all you have been told in school or church or in any book,
and dismiss whatever insults your own soul;
and your very flesh shall be a great poem....

~ Walt Whitman––from the Preface to Leaves of Grass

What would happen if the world followed these simple precepts?
Whitman was, of course, gay, a fact that is generally omitted from the schoolbooks and reprints of his work.  He was also kind, loving, generous, and immensely talented.  He broke the rules for poetry and the result was a totally independent voice in American literature.
Emerson first hailed him as a new and exciting poet, but later threw his books into the fire when he discovered that some contained homosexual content.
During the Civil War, he spent his time visiting the wounded in the Union hospitals, and continued his visits even after the war.

Monday, March 23, 2015

Einstein on the Spirit of the Universe 

Some quotes from Einstein:

"...behind all the discernible laws and connections, there remains something subtle, intangible and inexplicable...beyond anything that we can comprehend....A spirit is manifest in the laws of the Universe— a spirit vastly superior to that of man, and one in the face of which we, with our modest powers, must feel humble....If this Being is omnipotent, then every human action, every human thought, and every human feeling and aspiration is also His work....It is determined for the insect, as well as for the star.  Human beings, vegetables, or cosmic dust, we all dance to a mysterious tune intoned in the distance by an invisible player....Human beings in their thinking, feeling and acting are not free, but are as causally bound as the stars in their motions."

"To know that what is impenetrable to us really exists, manifesting itself as the highest wisdom and the most radiant beauty, which our dull faculties can comprehend only in their most primitive forms — this knowledge, this feeling, is at the center of true religiousness....What humanity owes to personalities like Buddha, Moses, and Jesus ranks for me higher than all the achievements of the enquiring and constructive mind."

(photo from Einstein site on internet)

Thursday, March 19, 2015

Rare Astronomical Event--from Pachamama Alliance 

An extremely rare astrological event is occurring on March 20.  Among other things, a total solar eclipse will occur on the March equinox.  Many new beginnings will occur, and many endings will also take place.  This is the time to discard old possessions and ideas, and to begin or complete many creative and spiritual projects.  One can utilize the extreme energies now surrounding the earth to launch new life directions and make plans into reality.  This description below tells what to look for.  And my astrologer friends tell me that other unusual phenomena will also be occurring.

Don't let this special opportunity pass!  Seize the moment and go ahead and fulfill your dreams, with the support of the universe itself!

This event cannot be seen from most of North America, but its effects will be felt.

On March 20, 2015, three extraordinary celestial events converge: the March equinox, a total solar eclipse, and a New Moon which is also a Super Moon.

Many of us make New Year’s resolutions in January with high hopes. But it’s easy to lose sight of these commitments to ourselves during the hurry and stress of our daily lives. The cosmic events on March 20 will invoke powerful energies in and around the Earth. We invite you to connect to these energies as you renew your resolutions.

Equinox and Solar Eclipse
We are fortunate to live in a century in which the equinox and solar eclipse will converge four times. The last solar eclipse during the March equinox was in 1681, and after the 21st century, the next occurrence will be in the year 2387, so this is truly a rare event.

Important note: Please remember that safety is important when looking at or toward the sun. Eye protection is mandatory when watching a solar eclipse.

Solar Eclipse and New Moon/Super Moon
A solar eclipse can only happen during a New Moon, when the moon passes directly between the sun and Earth, casting its shadow over the sun. The combination is especially powerful this month because the New Moon is also a Super Moon, meaning the moon is at its closest orbital approach to Earth. The Super Moon appears larger than an ordinary moon and also presents the greatest gravitational pull on our oceans and tides.

The Effect of a Cosmic Triad
The March equinox is a time when people might naturally feel invigorated and motivated to make changes in their lives. We could yearn to clean house, so to speak—to throw out old ways of doing things that no longer work for us and find new routines that unlock deeper levels of joy in our lives.

The New Moon is a time to renew our commitments. It is an invitation for us to devote more attention to what is most important in our lives—to focus our efforts on that which makes us feel vibrant and full of life. We encourage you to engage in a New Moon Action to solidify this commitment.

Take the time to write out your affirmations and wishes during the time leading up to this new moon, as the immense power and energy created by the universe will provide extra strength to you in following through on your promises to yourself. Meditate on what you want to see happen in the world. Take a long walk in nature. Make it a daily practice to open your heart to new possibilities, and you will be surprised by what you become capable of accomplishing.

(from Pachamama Alliance)

(image from internet)

Wednesday, March 18, 2015

"Orpheus"--poem by Dorothy 


The way the music bathes you.

The way it seizes you
and does not let go.

How enraptured we become.

How we do not remember the
other time, when there were two of us,
and not just one,
a single fused reality.

Do not talk to me
of something you call

Let your words cease
and listen
and know union.

Dorothy Walters
March 18, 2015

Tuesday, March 17, 2015

John O'Donohue--Beannact ( Blessing) 

Today was my birthday, so it seemed appropriate to offer this gift to you.
And, yes, I am Scotch Irish and love that country very much.  It is a place where the sacred energies run right up from the ground and bring bliss into your body, especially if you have an awakened kundalini.
Kundalini is not just personal--it animates the entire universe and when we feel it we know we are part of the sacred flow of divine rapture.


On the day when
the weight deadens
on your shoulders
and you stumble,
may the clay dance
to balance you.

And when your eyes
freeze behind
the grey window
and the ghost of loss
gets in to you,
may a flock of colours,
indigo, red, green,
and azure blue
come to awaken in you
a meadow of delight.

When the canvas frays
in the currach of thought
and a stain of ocean
blackens beneath you,
may there come across the waters
a path of yellow moonlight
to bring you safely home.

May the nourishment of the earth be yours,
may the clarity of light be yours,
may the fluency of the ocean be yours,
may the protection of the ancestors be yours.
And so may a slow
wind work these words
of love around you,
an invisible cloak
to mind your life.

~ John O'Donohue ~

(Echoes of Memory)

Monday, March 16, 2015

God Pours Light--Hafiz 


pours light
into every cup,
quenching darkness.

The proudly pious
stuff their cups with parchment
and critique the taste of ink

while God pours light

and the trees lift their limbs
without worry of redemption,
every blossom a chalice.

Hafiz, seduce those withered souls
with words that wet their parched lips

as light
pours like rain
into every empty cup
set adrift on the Infinite Ocean.

~ Hafiz ~

(Interpretive version of Ghazal 11 by Jose Orez)

(image from internet)

Friday, March 13, 2015

When "awakening" seems to vanish 

Many of us experience "dry periods," when all of our "awakening" states seem to vanish for unknown reasons.  Our bliss, our love making with the Beloved, have gone away--we are left in a state of lost connection, and we are convinced that we will never return to our earlier experience of transcendence.  I have undergone this period of seeming loss many times and have announced that "Now it is finished.  I will never again enter that divine moment of connection and rapture again."  But--then, for some reason, it returns--sometimes stronger than ever, even years after the original experience.

A friend had such an experience recently.  She was convinced that her kundalini had vanished forever, but I assured her it would ultimately return.  Then unexpectedly, after long absence, it was back again:  "luminous floral essence in my heart, incredibly...she...incredibly pure sweet bliss beauty."

Narayani suggests that this hiatus is the time for integration, rather than rapture.  I agree with this suggestion, but I also feel that integration may well be followed by reawakening of earlier bliss energies, for they are part of the same process.  Nothing is lost, all is regained, again and again, as our systems are being reshaped into a new configuration.  All is part of the evolution of consciousness which is occurring worldwide.   

Where did my awakening go?

Dear Beloved,

Have you ever felt like you you LOST a spiritual experience or it WENT AWAY and you miss it? If so, you should know that this is a common obstacle on the path. Below is a story about how I learned about this lesson and cleared this obstacle in my life.

In 2002,  I met a super magical enlightened teacher whom I spent a potent month with. My life changed rapidly from the inside-out.  It was intense and powerful and I was in an altered state for several months.

The teacher at that time explained that many people lose this enlightened state and so I did my best to hold onto it. But what I discovered is that I could not HOLD on because life as a human is in constant flux and perceptions are constantly changing.

With support and over time, I learned the value of using my awakening experience to manifest and create the life I wanted to live. The key was not to HOLD ONTO the STATE but to integrate and apply it to walk a life of balance and joy.

True Awakening cannot go away. Truth is that this process of integration takes time to digest and requires the right environment in order to sustain.

We can try to hold onto states of being - but it is not about the changing states....It is, however, all about the presence of awareness and how we show up for life.

If you want more on this topic, check out this video blog where I share all about the subject of integrating awake states and I will continue to throughout the month in the vlogs as well as  next week's Free Spring Equinox Activation TeleClass.


Wednesday, March 11, 2015

Rumi--My Soul 

    • “My soul is from elsewhere, I'm sure of that, and I intend to end up there." - Rumi

Tuesday, March 10, 2015



Yes, what I want is God talk,
words whispered into my ear,
streaming over me
like rose petals
falling from the clouds.

Syllables soothing me,
telling me
that indeed it is there,
whole and holy,
the thing we reach for,
the prize we want
and will have,
not matter what.

Dorothy Walters
March 8, 2015

Monday, March 09, 2015

David Baum, my Hero and Friend 

David Baum, my Hero and Friend

David Baum is special.  He does things that no one else might think of.  When he was young, he joined a circus and became a fire eater.  Later he set up a camp in the wilds of Canada and entertained unusual people there, some of whom stayed the winter because they loved the subzero temperatures.  When he experienced a major heart attack,
he asked the staff to play a Rumi poem during his operation and received permission from Coleman Barks.  Afterwards, he wrote an outstanding play/monologue about his experience and performed it in a highly professional way as his doctoral project.  After his recovery, he climbed the arduous trail up to Macchu Pichu, and played in the handicapped olympics to demonstrate his renewed strength.

Among other things, he traveled to see the mountain gorillas in Africa.  His professional work became helping women set up projects in undeveloped nations abroad.  He wrote two outstanding books on leadership and change and presented his ideas at Oxford.

And the list goes on.

David is currently traveling in Jordan, traveling overland to see Petra, the famous site of the ancient city carved from rock.  He is staying with Bedouins along the way.

Above all, David is a precious friend.  As well as being a world class adventurer, he is extremely loving and kind (and fun).  He wrote today to say that he read some of my poetry at Petra, the ancient city carved from rock.  This is an honor I would never have expected.  In many respects, he exemplifies the qualities we hope for in the highest manifestation of the Kundalini process.  He appears to have unlimited curiosity and energy. It is as if something inside has been released, and he goes about his world journey, embracing novel experiences and dedicating himself to improving the lives of others along the way.

 And today I received a video of David reading my poem.  Amazing!  It is
certainly an outstanding present for my birthday, coming up in a few days.  I am very moved by this tribute.

Thank you, David, for this and all the gifts you have given me. It is indeed a stroke of good fortune that you have been part of my life for so many years.

I love you.


Here is the poem which David read (from "A Cloth of Fine Gold: Poems of the Inner Journey)


When you are in love
you do not say
you are near love
or beside love,
or seeking to know
love's truth.

You say you are in love.

Never mind how you got here.
This is your ocean.
Drown in it.

Saturday, March 07, 2015

Message from Andrew Harvey 

Join me for a special event
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Dear Friends,

I will be hosting a special event with my dear friend Adam Bucko to raise funds for Sacred Activism Kashmir. Here is the release on the event details, I hope you will join us.


For as long as there has been suffering in the world, there have been teachers and guides who sacrificed their lives to freeing others from pain and misery. Never before, however, have the stakes of suffering included the wholesale destruction of ecosystems and nations. With the recently released, dire reports by climate change scientists and the massive social destabilization caused by our unsustainable consumer culture, it would seem weíve reached a turning point in which we will either finally learn how to live in peace or else follow the many other species whoíve been made extinct by humanityís unchecked greed.

Author, poet and activist, Andrew Harvey teaches that the key to our survival during this period of chaos is activating a sacred relationship with every level of existence. On March 10th, at 9PM Eastern, he will be joined by fellow sacred activist, Adam Bucko to discuss in practical terms how one can achieve this. We will learn that unless our love for the divine, animals and our fellow human beings is expressed as love in action it is not love at all. During this crucial turning point itís more important than ever not to give in to feelings of despair and low self-esteem. Andrew and Adam will challenge us to join a network of ìordinary giversî who have been activated to ìdo what they can within their means.î They will show how by simply asking, ìWhat can I give?î we can break free from being impotent slaves of the machine and remember who we really are: a network of ordinary people who are incarnations of a divine living love.

You can be a part of the conversation and interact directly with Andrew and Adam by signing up for a registration donation of only $10, which also includes unlimited access to the recording in case you miss the live session or wish to watch it again. All proceeds of this 90 minute, video discussion will go to Andrew Harveyís fundraiser for victims of the 2014 floods in Kashmir called Sacred Activism Kashmir. His goal is to raise $50,000 to help four families and a school rebuild after losing their homes and livelihoods. With the exception of PayPal fees, every penny you donate will go directly to Kashmir through Andrew personally, who will be traveling to the region to oversee the reconstruction efforts.

The devestation of the sacred land and people of Kashmir is ongoing. If you can't attend the webinar we still hope you will help support this cause.  You can read Andrew's personal letter asking for your help and contribute to the campaign directly here.

We look forward to you joining us LIVE, on Tuesday, March 10th for this very special online event.

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Thursday, March 05, 2015

Jan Elvee––"The Pathless Woods––poem 

The Pathless Woods

Yes, the pathless woods are daunting
as reality or metaphor.
Without guides who know the Way,
you could wander endlessly,
lonely and increasingly desperate.

And perhaps you've already been advised,
even if you don't believe it,
that deliverance from your ceaseless straggling
can only be found in the desperation you struggle to avoid.

How much longer will you trudge,
lost and proud, before you stop
stock-still and sink into utter desolation?

Then the guides will speak, sotto voce,
through your own heart's desires.
Be ever so quiet now.
Listen vigilantly.
Their whispers will lead you.

Jan Elvee
March 5, 2015

Wednesday, March 04, 2015

More Advice from Rumi 

8. You don’t have to see the whole staircase, just take the first step.

“As you start to walk out on the way, the way appears.”

9. When you commit to something, do it with all your heart.

“Half-heartedness doesn’t reach into majesty. You set out to find God, but then you keep stopping for long periods at mean-spirited roadhouses.”

“When you do things from your soul you feel a river moving in you, a joy. When action come from another section, the feeling disappears.”

“Wherever you are, and whatever you do, be in love.”

10. Good things come to an end so that better things can fall together.

“Do not grieve. Anything you lose comes round in another form.”

11. The wound is the place where the Light enters you.

“What hurts you, blesses you. Darkness is your candle.”

“Where there is ruin, there is hope for a treasure.”

“Don’t turn away. Keep your gaze on the bandaged place. That’s where the light enters you.”

“Grief can be the garden of compassion. If you keep your heart open through everything, your pain can become your greatest ally in your life’s search for love and wisdom.”

“You have to keep breaking your heart until it opens.”

12. Do what you love and do it with love.

“Let the beauty we love be what we do.”

“Let yourself be silently drawn by the stronger pull of what you really love.”

“Be occupied, then, with what you really value and let the thief take something else.”

13. Think less. Feel more.

“Reason is powerless in the expression of Love.”

“Put your thoughts to sleep, do not let them cast a shadow over the moon of your heart. Let go of thinking.”

“Only from the heart can you touch the sky.”

“There is a candle in your heart, ready to be kindled. There is a void in your soul, ready to be filled. You feel it, don’t you?”

“Be empty of worrying. Think of who created thought! Why do you stay in prison When the door is so wide open?”

14. Love is worth it all.

“Gamble everything for love, if you’re a true human being. If not, leave this gathering.”

“Let the lover be disgraceful, crazy, absentminded. Someone sober will worry about events going badly. Let the lover be.”

15. Appreciate both the good and the bad in your life.

“Be grateful for whoever comes, because each has been sent as a guide from beyond.”

“If you are irritated by every rub, how will you be polished?”

“When someone beats a rug, the blows are not against the rug, but against the dust in it.”

16. You change your world by changing yourself.

“Yesterday I was clever, so I wanted to change the world. Today I am wise, so I am changing myself.”

17. We are made of Love and made to Love.

“We are born of love; Love is our mother. “

“Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.”

“Through Love all that is bitter will be sweet, Through Love all that is copper will be gold, Through Love all dregs will become wine, through Love all pain will turn to medicine.”

“I have no companion but Love, no beginning, no end, no dawn. The Soul calls from within me: ‘You, ignorant of the way of Love, set Me free.’ “

“That which is false troubles the heart, but truth brings joyous tranquillity.”

The above excerpts are from

25 Life Changing Lessons To Learn From Rumi | TruthTheory

by Luminita Saviuc

(I do not know who wrote these translations.
Photo is from internet.)

Tuesday, March 03, 2015

Translations of some of my poems into Italian by Daniela D'Uva  

Recently, I have been in touch with a wonderful woman who lives in Italy.  She came across my poems and has been translating some of them into Italian, for her own pleasure as well as that of a few friends.  I do not know Italian, but I can tell that the verses are indeed much more musical in this language.  As I read them silently––or even aloud–– these softened syllables ring gently in my ears and offer a new dimension to the  poems.
Thanks, dear Daniela D'Uva.
Here is the website created by Daniela and her friend Stefania Fiocci: http://www.inspiral.it/en/  Look it up!

Of Course

There is some kiss we want with
our whole lives, the touch of
Spirit on the body.

Yes, of course,
that is the thing we want,
touch of Spirit
on body,
delight of soul
enfleshed and opened,

trembling at last,
how could we not
how it was before,
when you were not there,
when all we had
was this cloud of longing
and did not even know
what it was
we were looking for?

Dorothy Walters


Ci sono alcuni baci che noi vogliamo con
le nostre intere vite, il tocco dello
Spirito sul corpo

Sì, certo,
questo è ciò che vogliamo,
il tocco dello Spirito
sul corpo,
diletto dell’anima
incarnata e aperta,

tremanti infine,
come possiamo non
come era prima,
quando non eri qui,
quando tutto quello che avevamo
era questa nuvola di desiderio
e neppure sapevamo
cosa era
quello che stavamo cercando?

D. Walters


Those drowned in God want to be more drowned.

Everything in.
Nothing held back,
not the bewildered face in the mirror,
the memory of the first time,
the quarrel and reconciliation.

This wind will sweep you
from yourself,
the way clouds absorb an ocean,
the way fire seeks out
the marrow of flame.

When it is over
you will be less than a bit
of twisted weed,
smaller than a splinter
of sea-blackened wood.

You will not miss
your lost possessions
nor even remember their uses.
When someone shows you
your cast items,
your familiar appendages
and agendas,
even your flashing ornaments,
you will look puzzled,
and ask, –What are these?
Their functions or relevance?
I have drunk from a deep well.
What are these sips you offer,
‘just for the taste?’
I’m looking for a world
sky deep in water.


Quelli immersi in Dio vogliono esserne ancora più sommersi

Tutto dentro.
Niente tenuto dietro,
non la faccia sconcertata nello specchio,
il ricordo della prima volta,
il litigio e la riconciliazione.

Questo vento ti spazzerà via
da te stesso,
come le nuvole assorbono un oceano,
come il fuoco cerca
il midollo della fiamma.

E quando finirà
sarai meno di un pugno
di erbaccia strizzata,
più piccolo di una scheggia
di legno annerita dal mare.

Non ti mancheranno
i tuoi beni lasciati
né ricorderai il loro uso.
Quando qualcuno ti mostrerà
i tuoi oggetti perduti,
le tue familiari appendici
ed agende,
ed anche i tuoi scintillanti ornamenti,
ti guarderai perplesso,
e chiederai, - Cosa sono questi?
La loro funzione o rilevanza?

Ho bevuto da un pozzo profondo.
Cosa sono questi sorsi che offri,
‘solo per assaggio?
Io sto cercando un mondo
di cielo sommerso nell’acqua.


Only the stunned and bewildered ever glimpse the throne.

All of us have been stunned enough,
and bewildered enough,
passing again and again over landscape
we could never name,
sun where stars should be,
moon coming forth at noon,
ourselves leaping through exploding
rainbows of flame,
landing, perhaps, at the heart,
the silent core,
hands glowing and empty,
bodies clothed only in ashes and tint.


Solo lo stordito e il disorientato non intravedono mai il trono

Ognuno di noi è stato stordito abbastanza,
e disorientato abbastanza,
passando di nuovo ed ancora sopra terre
che non potremmo mai nominare,
il sole al posto delle stelle,
la luna che sorge a mezzogiorno,
noi stessi che saltiamo
attraverso esplosivi arcobaleni di fiamma,
atterrando, forse, al cuore,
al nucleo silente,
le mani ardenti e vuote,
i corpi vestiti solo di ceneri e tinta.


The Place where you are right now
God circled on a map for you.

The poet says
god has put a circle around you on a map
to locate you in sacred space.
Then why do you keep tunneling
carving labyrinths for your escape?


Il Posto dove ti trovi ora
Dio lo ha cerchiato su una mappa per te.

Il poeta dice
dio ha messo un cerchio intorno a te su una mappa
per localizzarti nello spazio sacro.
Allora perché continui a scavare
tracciando labirinti per la tua fuga?


Every day a new flower rises
from your body’s fresh soil.
Don’t go around looking
for fallen petals
in a fairy tale, when you’ve
got the golden plant
right here, now,
shooting forth in light from your eyes,
your awakening crown.

Don’t make lists, or explore ancient accounts.
Forget everything you know
and open.


Ogni giorno un fiore nuovo cresce
dal fresco suolo del tuo corpo.
Non andare in giro a cercare
in una fiaba
i petali caduti, dopo aver raggiunto
la pianta d’oro
-proprio qui, ora-
che germoglia alla luce dei tuoi occhi,
il coronamento del tuo risveglio.

Non fare liste, non esplorare antiche ragioni.
Dimentica tutto quello che conosci
e apriti.


Is God only
A drop of honey on the tongue?
A night owl who keeps calling
to the darkness he wants for lover?
Is your soul's wound
just a remembrance of where
the spirit kissed you
as you were being born?

E’ dio solo
una goccia di miele sulla lingua?
Un gufo notturno che continua a chiamare
l'oscurità che vuole per amante?
E’ la tua ferita dell’anima
solo un ricordo di dove
lo spirito ti baciò
appena nascesti?


What the heart wants
is to follow its true passion,
to lie down with it
near the reeds beside
the river,
to devour it in the caves
between the desert dunes,
to sing its notes
into the morning sky
until even the angels
wake up
and take notice
and look around
for their beloved.

Ciò che il cuore vuole
è seguire la sua vera passione,
sdraiarsi con lei
vicino alle canne accanto
al fiume,
divorarla nelle grotte
tra le dune del deserto,
cantare la sua melodia
nel cielo del mattino
fino a quando anche gli angeli
si svegliano
e prendono atto
e cercano intorno
la loro amata.


Almost dawn
Once again,
you slipped in
while I was sleeping,
now you are demanding more.

What else can I give you?
My heart was the first to go,
I fainted and fell down dumb.
Each time you trembled through me,
you with no body,
no name,
a flame lit where I stood,
until I became a shadow,
a wraith consumed in fire.

Do you want these ashes?
hold out your hand.
We are mingled here

Quasi l'alba
una volta ancora,
sei scivolato dentro
mentre dormivo,
ora domandi di più

Cos'altro posso darti?
Il mio cuore è stato il primo ad andare,
svenni e caddi muta.
Ogni volta che tremavi attraverso me,
tu senza corpo,
senza nome,
una fiamma illuminava ove mi trovavo,
finché divenni un'ombra,
un fantasma consumato dal fuoco.

Vuoi queste ceneri?
allunga la mano.
Noi siamo mescolati qui

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